Incoming 2011

I am celebrating the New Year: by closing my eyes and hiding myself under a blanket.

Goodnight 2010, it's been swell. I shall wake to new resolutions and a 10-7 shift at Borders.

New resolutions: creating more-forgiving more-loving more. (of course I've got specific resolutions, right Peter? ; )

I apologize for my uncheery status, I feel the need to be real--I am glum this New Year's Eve.

BUT I am hopeful, determined, and motivated--I serve a God who wants more out of me and will bless me in choosing to live according to His plan. Year 2011, He will challenge me and stretch me to the point of breaking--perhaps that's exactly what I need, what we all need, to break--surrendering--every little bit of us.

The only way for me to be able to "hold it together" in 2011, I must let go, let Him take over, 100%. Thank you, Lord. We don't deserve a love like Yours, and yet you do--You keep on loving--You want only the best for us all.

In joy and pain, in sun and rain, you're the same. You never let go.

A Full Heart

My heart is full

of blessings from my Father who makes this world bearable

I am in need of Him to be careful

that I may never stray but remain faithful

to He who fills my heart.

I'd Scream

Can I just curl up in a sound proof box and scream, please?

I'd scream in agony,

Regret,

Shame,

Confusion,

Frustration,

It would be a passionate scream, because I'd be screaming to the only one who cares,

Listens,

Loves,

If only I could scream,

Cry,

And let it all out.

In the Mood

I am in the mood to write

And this should be a wonderful thing

Considering I have a fair share of "writing assignments" due in Creative Writing

But I would rather blog.

I am in the mood to draw

This should also be a wonderful thing

Being that there are drawings to be finished and fine-tuned for my Drawing class

But I would rather start my own piece.

Oh, how we love to self-gratify

And do want we want to do.

But what I need to, is this:

Get off my blog

Quit writing nonsense

Go potty

Eat some food

Do some jumping jacks

Play some Frank Sinatra

And be proactive.

Can I get an "Amen"?

Unfinished:

I am always unfinished.

Color Me Orange

Orange: we go together like carrots and sweet potatoes,

Sunrises and orange juice,

Clementines and tiger lilies.

Orange rejuvenates my soul

Reminding me to extract life's juices;

Squeezing and seizing its every moment.

Letting it drip from our elbows

and splatter

between our toes.